When I originally had the idea to write this blog, it was going to be funny. I was going to include all kinds of memes, because they’re fun and easy. But, a few things happened recently that made me decide to go in a different direction. And I felt compelled to share some hard things, to pull the curtain back a bit on being an entrepreneur.
But before we dive in, let’s have a laugh. 😂
But, I’d be lying if I didn’t tell you that there are tears in my eyes as I write this. I often get comments about how lucky I am when I post pics from coffeeshops, working outside, traveling, etc. How fun it must be to have the freedom to do what I do and things like that. They’re not mean- not at all and I don’t take them that way. I do have an amazing life and opportunity to run my own business.
But, it’s fucking hard y’all.
This week I was told that Entrepreneur Magazine would like to feature me in an article about the top 20 podcasts to listen to in 2020 and then the next day (yesterday) I lost a client.
Talk about high’s and low’s – this all happened within like 36 hours of each other.
Normally, this wouldn’t be a big deal, there is an ebb and flow in my business, especially this time of the year when business slows down, but another one of my long-time clients recently decided to pause her marketing efforts for a little bit. So, unfortunately, these combined will have an impact on my income that I hadn’t planned on. But, hey, lots of unplanned things come up when you run a business.
But, I still felt like a failure last night when I got that email…
I got stressed and anxious…
I got snappy with my kids which only made my mom guilt rear its ugly head even more…
I wondered if I should even share this…Would people think I suck at what I do? Do I suck at what I do? Should I just throw in the towel and get a job? All the imposter feels came up fast and loud.
But, after a few tears and BIG glass of wine, I realized that this is actually where I am supposed to be headed. This is the direction that I want to take my business.
Less clients and more students.
My passion is helping business owners master their marketing so they can effectively grow their business without stress, worry and overwhelm. And traditionally that meant that I would do all the marketing for them. Recently, this has morphed into more of a training program – which both terrifies me and ignites me at the same time.
I’m an introvert and hate speaking in front of people, on the phone, on video calls, etc., but this has forced me to step up and out of my comfort zone and do it.
And I kind of love it.
I have to admit that it’s terrifying. To keep going in a new direction and steer away from the direction of what I’ve always done. To feel like things are falling apart around me, but knowing that this is exactly what happens RIGHT before a major break through. To walk through the fear even though I can’t see the other side.
I love what I do.
I love helping my clients and my students.
It’s changing lives.
Whether you are a business owner or not, life can be hard sometimes, but keep going! You are stronger than you think and I want to encourage you to just take the next step ❤️
If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to reach out!
I love your honesty, vulnerability and your truth. Thank you for speaking what what I’m feeling.
Thank you, Sunny 🙂 It has taken everything to not delete this post, so I’m happy that it resonated with you!
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